Surrender... mysterious and simple. Almost always misunderstood by those who come close enough to taste it.
Misconstrued by some as law abiding striving... by others as a one time, come to Jesus be-all end-all.
It is abstract and subjective to most.
My heart struggles to wrap itself around this idea...
It occurs to me now that surrender... is... really... an art.
It is not a three step program. It is not linear and concrete.
It is full of questions and emotion. A falling, fighting, and laying down again.
Never comes easy and never, never... without a fight.
It is the end result of the wrestling, churning, and tilling of the heart.
It is the opportunity to live through dying.
To say..... Your strength is made perfect in my weakness...
It's not enough to say, "I surrender all", to put it in a song, and make it a nice accompaniment to an altar call.
It is process... pulling... asking....waiting.... weeping.... mourning... humbling.....trusting....
It is an art. The greatest art of the human soul in relationship to God.
I want to be a great surrenderer.
Even when I don't know how to let go, to embrace each stroke, each movement, each step, to progress.....
I want to come a little closer to saying yes with my whole heart.
To truly learn the art of surrender.
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